Not sure how to start

Every day I read many blog posts. I first go to my friend Sarah's blog read what she has posted. What she writes is so amazing and inspiring. She has opened my eyes and heart to love her and her family even more than I already did. I then travel down and look at each of the links on her blog to all the others she recommends. I look at each one, I look for new posts and read them all. I travel into a snapshot of each of their lives. I find laughter, prayer request, inspiration, confirmation of Gods love, identification of what each person may be going through and maybe so am I. I tell myself each day that I should make comments to their posts I do feel a connection and yet fear keeps me from commenting.

As I travel down the list of names each day I see mine. Each day it causes me to freeze up because the fear is so real. I just do not know how to start. I do not know where to start. I must have 50 journals in my house with one or two entries. Getting out what is in my heart and head is so hard. I so desire to have a light heart and yet right now my heart is so heavy.

This is so hard and yet I know so very important. I want to have something for my kids. I continue to as God to show me what I am to do. I am not a scrapbooker or journal writer. I want to be a blogger however I am afraid to write. There is something about seeing words on a page. I love to read so I know when words are written they become real.

Like all fears in life getting through the first steps are always the hardest. I am sure if I post more often the fears will lesten. So I am still not sure how to start but I am willing to try.